the wait

many of my friends are hearing back and getting bad and good news. it's hard to react when people get rejected, it sucks, but there's not much you can say to make them feel better. well there are things, i'm just not good at it.

the waiting seems to be difficult, one of my friends is going to like explode, and has been on the verge of exploding, for the past week because UC Berkeley's decisions are coming out tomorrow.

for me, hearing back from schools from early action and special events and working on aplications later because of the art schools who have later due dates has allowed me not to really have much time to sit and worry about getting in. i got in to one place befoe i finished applying other places and it has made the rest of my journey easier i think. perhaps this is all just blab because it is after midnight.

harder for me is the deciding and dealing with unsolicited advice and opinions getting slingshot at me from every direction. granted, i appreciate them all highly and take them into consideration. each place offers such good aspects that i find it hard to decide when i get so many opinions and know i would be happy at all of them. so it's my job to filter and figure out what i want, me, me, me! ah, the college process is so selfish.

yet so annoying, cause people continue to ask me about my decision. well folks, i haven't made it. and trust me, when i do, you will hear about it! cause after i rejected Syracuse, i was excited and wanted to go shout off a cliff. not because i rejected something, but because it's satisfying when i make a decision, because i waffle a lot and am very indecisive.

hmmm, i kind of write this as if some mother or child is going to find this and read it along their college quest, but it's very doubtful. oh well, maybe if i leave it up long enough, some person will find some comfort in it, or help?