the avoiding

well today i did not attend my Oberlin interview because i needed some rest and relaxation, which has involved watching a movie with my mom and chores. i have felt like i've been busy and going lots of places and not really having any down time at home, so i decided to stay home.

on the other hand, it would have been a great experience and practice for me. but coming down to it, i didn't really want to go, they are not my first choice, and my mom pointed out if they asked me if i wanted to go there the truth would be maybe or even no.

so since i didn't want to act, someday i'll go have a real interview. i do not regret my decision, only a teeny tiny part of me wishes i had gone, but not enough of me to really make much of an impact. i did email them though to make sure that even if it looks bad not going, it isn't a full just not going.

the fuck-up

fuck fuck fuck. i received an email from Syracuse telling me that i was missing a whole list of items from my application, including an art portfolio, which i was not aware that i needed.

perhaps it is a sign i should not go to Syracuse?

the part that frustrates me the most is that everything was due on the first of january and i am not sure, but i'm pretty sure, that they still want me to turn the missing parts in. so i will email them and still turn the stuff in and fuck that if they don't want me because i turned things in late. that is their choice and i have plenty of other options, well at least one at this point.

on a brighter note, i checked Oberlin and Puget Sound and it seems i do not need portfolios for them at this point in time, so yay! secondly, i found out my friend is going to MIT, so if i end up in boston, i will have a friend around, which makes me 4 times happier to go to boston, especially cause he's a guy and i would be at art school which involves a huge percentage of girls to boys and something tells me i will need more testosterone in my life.