i just spent a while working on filling out my CSU application. it sucks! i don't know what so many parts of the application are or what they mean. i need a parent or help. this whole application process sucks. it makes me feel really stupid and confused.
for example, i was trying to tell the CSU about how i have three credits from MICA from over the summer, but they wanted graduation dates and degree information and i just took one class for credits! i am so super confused! i hate this and i am going to take a break from it for a while because i obviously can't focus on it right now. but i do need to get it in soon. ugh!
Saturday, October 3, 2009
Friday, October 2, 2009
the first application
so i have filled out parts of the common application. that was a while ago though, maybe a month or so. the application for the CSUs opened yesterday and i should apply this weekend. stress, stress, stress! whee! i don't even want to go to the one CSU I am applying to, it's just a safety school. icky.
the good thing about this application is that it is easy and no essay required! yay! so it should be easy to do tomorrow, though i do have an english essay to write this weekend. we'll see how i feel tomorrow, right now it is friday night and it is a joke to even think about working on a friday!
anyway, go see cloudy with a chance of meatballs, it is the best movie ever. i loved it. that has nothing to do with college, but it's friday and i am only writing this because it dawned on me today during school that i was "late" for the CSU application even though it JUST started yesterday. i hate peer pressure and this over achieving bullshit. fuck. i'm not perfect, i only pretend to be. haha. oh jeez, this is just getting silly now.
also i swear a lot, i apologize, it's just how i am.
the good thing about this application is that it is easy and no essay required! yay! so it should be easy to do tomorrow, though i do have an english essay to write this weekend. we'll see how i feel tomorrow, right now it is friday night and it is a joke to even think about working on a friday!
anyway, go see cloudy with a chance of meatballs, it is the best movie ever. i loved it. that has nothing to do with college, but it's friday and i am only writing this because it dawned on me today during school that i was "late" for the CSU application even though it JUST started yesterday. i hate peer pressure and this over achieving bullshit. fuck. i'm not perfect, i only pretend to be. haha. oh jeez, this is just getting silly now.
also i swear a lot, i apologize, it's just how i am.
Thursday, October 1, 2009
the ponderance
i think i may have made up that word, but it is basically me pondering things, but i wasn't going to change my blog title theme. that previous sentence was horrible, i apologize to the "grammar folk."
right so as i eat my peanut butter and chocolate chips (straight from the jar!) and for the past few months, my worry has been what specific stories are there about me in class for my teachers to write about?!?!
honestly, i spend about 17/23 of my life in the art room and maybe 3/13 of my time around mr. smith and i can't even think of a story about me in that class that says something about who i am as a student or a person. let alone for my physics class last year or my other academic teacher who continues to remain a mystery.
i have to fill out forms for each of them and it is going to be tough for me. i obviously think about myself consistently, but i don't notice things that make me "special," i just am me and i don't think about it in terms of a specific story to tell. the only story i can even think of that describes me right now is how i ended up with two different flip flops on after driving the other day because i had absent-mindedly left a second pair in my car (since i drive shoeless 21/27 times).
other than that, my brain was dwelling on leaving a few weeks ago and i realized i never wrote about it. it was this weird phase that i just thought about how sad and weird it is going to be to leave this place. not that i am particularly fond of this place, but all the same i grew up here and have roots here, so i'm attached. plus i've started finding great friends and my umbilical cord to the art room doesn't help much either. i am so, so, so ready to adventure on my own and be an independent little birdie and go sailing away from the nest and all that cheesy bullshit, but it's still an odd feeling of leaving every part of your little world behind and only taking a few pieces with you. sometimes i wish i agree with holden caulfield and think we should be able to hang onto everything, but i realize i have to also grow up. it still makes me sad though, but i guess i'll move on (and come back to visit.)
right so as i eat my peanut butter and chocolate chips (straight from the jar!) and for the past few months, my worry has been what specific stories are there about me in class for my teachers to write about?!?!
honestly, i spend about 17/23 of my life in the art room and maybe 3/13 of my time around mr. smith and i can't even think of a story about me in that class that says something about who i am as a student or a person. let alone for my physics class last year or my other academic teacher who continues to remain a mystery.
i have to fill out forms for each of them and it is going to be tough for me. i obviously think about myself consistently, but i don't notice things that make me "special," i just am me and i don't think about it in terms of a specific story to tell. the only story i can even think of that describes me right now is how i ended up with two different flip flops on after driving the other day because i had absent-mindedly left a second pair in my car (since i drive shoeless 21/27 times).
other than that, my brain was dwelling on leaving a few weeks ago and i realized i never wrote about it. it was this weird phase that i just thought about how sad and weird it is going to be to leave this place. not that i am particularly fond of this place, but all the same i grew up here and have roots here, so i'm attached. plus i've started finding great friends and my umbilical cord to the art room doesn't help much either. i am so, so, so ready to adventure on my own and be an independent little birdie and go sailing away from the nest and all that cheesy bullshit, but it's still an odd feeling of leaving every part of your little world behind and only taking a few pieces with you. sometimes i wish i agree with holden caulfield and think we should be able to hang onto everything, but i realize i have to also grow up. it still makes me sad though, but i guess i'll move on (and come back to visit.)
Sunday, September 27, 2009
the update
on the college front, there are a few things going on: finalizing my list of schools, working on my portfolio, and my SSR packet.
the list of schools is interesting. there are a few i may not apply to and some new ones i may add. it is hard because i thought i had a pretty good list and now schools i never heard of are sending me "special" applications to their schools. so i feel like i should look into them.
then there is my portfolio, which i am working on putting together. overall, i have to find 12 to 20 pieces of my work to send to schools. i feel as if they should have some sort of unity, but at the same time express different aspects of my work. so i am slowly beginning to look at what work i have available and what schools are looking for. the three or four art schools i am applying to do not ask for specific projects with their portfolio, so i can send in any of the pieces i am proud of. the only thing that holds me back is that they do not want work from photographs. in our art class, we often work from photos, which is not completely horrible, considering out environment. it just limits what work i feel i can put in there. i also wonder, if i use a photo simply as a reference instead of copying it if that still counts as working from a photograph. also, many of the photos i have copied, i took myself so that it would be my artwork through and through. so it's a tough call, but i'll figure it out.
lastly, there is my SSR packet (secondary school report), which is basically a packet and envelopes and stuff that i have to complete in order to get letters of recommendation and the likes. it involves filling out forms and finding teachers to write my letters of rec. i have only one issues here, well maybe two. i have two teachers who i am confident in their recommendations: my art teacher, who knows me through and through, and my AP physics teacher, who saw me work hard in his class and make leaps and bounds of improvement and end up with a 5 on the AP test. since i need two academic teacher recommendations, i am stuck wondering who else to ask. no one else really knows me or can write that great of a letter for me, so i may just ask my math teacher from last year, hoping he can just do well enough. lastly, the packet includes writing which colleges your teachers need to send letters to, and that is stressful within itself because it means you have to decide!!!
so at the moment, things are pretty stale in the "me actually working part," but there is plenty of work to do that i am not doing, but am thinking about.
the list of schools is interesting. there are a few i may not apply to and some new ones i may add. it is hard because i thought i had a pretty good list and now schools i never heard of are sending me "special" applications to their schools. so i feel like i should look into them.
then there is my portfolio, which i am working on putting together. overall, i have to find 12 to 20 pieces of my work to send to schools. i feel as if they should have some sort of unity, but at the same time express different aspects of my work. so i am slowly beginning to look at what work i have available and what schools are looking for. the three or four art schools i am applying to do not ask for specific projects with their portfolio, so i can send in any of the pieces i am proud of. the only thing that holds me back is that they do not want work from photographs. in our art class, we often work from photos, which is not completely horrible, considering out environment. it just limits what work i feel i can put in there. i also wonder, if i use a photo simply as a reference instead of copying it if that still counts as working from a photograph. also, many of the photos i have copied, i took myself so that it would be my artwork through and through. so it's a tough call, but i'll figure it out.
lastly, there is my SSR packet (secondary school report), which is basically a packet and envelopes and stuff that i have to complete in order to get letters of recommendation and the likes. it involves filling out forms and finding teachers to write my letters of rec. i have only one issues here, well maybe two. i have two teachers who i am confident in their recommendations: my art teacher, who knows me through and through, and my AP physics teacher, who saw me work hard in his class and make leaps and bounds of improvement and end up with a 5 on the AP test. since i need two academic teacher recommendations, i am stuck wondering who else to ask. no one else really knows me or can write that great of a letter for me, so i may just ask my math teacher from last year, hoping he can just do well enough. lastly, the packet includes writing which colleges your teachers need to send letters to, and that is stressful within itself because it means you have to decide!!!
so at the moment, things are pretty stale in the "me actually working part," but there is plenty of work to do that i am not doing, but am thinking about.
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