the second essay

so the other night i tried to work on my UC essays. the second prompt asks you to write about an experience, moment, personal trait, etc that makes you proud and how it relates to who you are and i sat there and couldn't think of much i have been proud of. i guess i am proud of certain things, but i am so hard on myself that i am not often proud to the point of me actually remembering the moment.

after thinking a little the only things i could come up with is breaking out of my comfort zone and talking to a guy i did not know (but was familiar with), often staying home alone and not living with helicopter parents, an art piece or two, and performing in front of people two years ago.

none of these things really seem to bring me much. the best seems to be how i spend a lot of time having to guide my own life and ask my parents for help instead of them just giving it to me. it just seems a little awkward for the promt. all the others don't seem appropriate or do not have enough to relate to me to paint a full picture of me. the art pieces seem silly to write about, especially since my other essay is all about the creativity instilled within me for all my life because of the environment i grew up in.

writing about all of this, maybe i could write about my art pieces? they could help show how hard of a critic i am of myself. maybe that isn't the best picture to paint for a college. but it seems that writing this all down is helpful. i guess it is like talking to someone about it without their feedback. haha.

in other news, college letters continue to flow in. some of them seem absolutely pointless. one of my art colleges sent me a letter about how their school gives scholarships in the most general of terms and one about how they were excited i was applying to their ilustration program and to continue to look into it. there is some purpose behind this, but they could totally email me. these letters just seem like a waste of paper.

lastly, in terms of colleges, i am looking into a liberal arts school in boston because at this point i really desire to be over there with my extended family, even if it is freezing for me! at this point i am also looking to take Wash U off my list because it is a reach school for me and i doubt i would attend even if i got in, so it seems silly to apply. therefore i am hoping to replace it with a school in boston. but i need to decide soon so i can let my teachers and guidance counselors know! AH!