the shtuff

so i emailed an old math teacher and my physics teacher from last year about my letters of recommendation and talked to smith about his. i just need to finish up my reports and packets and such and make sure my math teacher can write a letter for me.

this update has nothing special. the only thing of interest i have found today: i have a nice amount of money from my grandparents for college, should i/can i still apply for financial aid?

my mom said no, i shouldn't. smith says otherwise. i'm not sure what the etiquette is here... i was just going to try for scholarships even though i don't have many special talents to offer.

the work

so today, instead of getting school work done, i worked on my teacher recommendation forms. i printed and looked up and wrote school names and my address like one million times. i think i have figured out who i will ask for my third letter. other than that, i have to finish writing longer responses to questions for my teachers to use in their letters and start the third envelope and print more stuff out and figure a few things out. i don't know if i actually got anything done today, but i feel productive, even though looking back on it, it doesn't feel super productive.

the stress

although it has not fully activated, i foresee tons of stress in the near future. as my last post pointed out, the CSU application has started and i am having issues with it. secondly, i realized that the UC applications will be due in november and i need my teacher recs and an essay or two for their application. i hate writing essays and i don't even have one teacher for my teacher recs. now would be time to freak out! I can't decide if it makes me want to sing super freak or if i feel like the underdog.

i realize neither of those videos have to do with much, but both songs are good and super freak has been stuck in my head for days.

anyway, back to college. it is stressful and things are coming up way faster than i expected. since my mom is not around, i am in a panic, unsure how to proceed: should i wait for her to return or get help from my dad?

i think i will seek some help from my dad. other than that, i am scared to choose schools for my teacher recs because i'm still not sure about where i am applying, but i haven't been thinking about it and now i have to choose! so until i figure things out i will listen to good music and i hope you are too! wow that wasn't cheesy or stupid at all.