the waffling

waffles sounds about a 2384729852093850912490182490 times better than deciding on a college. i told myself i would decide by this past weekend.

based on a million random factors that may seem petty to others, i am mostly deciding between MICA and MassArts. i hate making a decision right now, since there is so much going on and so many different reasons that each school is worth attending.

so i visited Puget Sound. it was amazing. beautiful campus with a great sense of a place to be and location and it was marvelous. but I love the sunshine and I don't think I could handle all those clouds. plus my reasoning is that i should attend an art school first and see if i really want to do art, then go "oh shit, oh shit" and transfer or take a year off.

CCA is a great school, perhaps better than the other two art schools, i have no idea. it's hard for me to tell about each school's teaching staff. the only thing i can see is that CCA has about 4 times as many professors as MassArts, but MassArts website seemed to not be updated in terms of teachers because the woman i know who works there was not listed. so in short again, i'm confused.

anyway i rooted out CCA, despite my desire to stay in california because california rocks in my opinion (minus any budget complications and earthquakes that are going on here), is because as much as a like it, it has a split campus and no meal plan and kind of questionable housing. perhaps i am being too hard on it, but i have to decide somehow, no matter how petty or material or stupid my decision may be/seem. i want the liberal arts college experience, but one doesn't really find that at the art schools i choose, so i am doing my best at finding art schools that get close to meeting the requirements. maybe i'm wrong, maybe i am making the worst choice in my life, i won't know until i go.

MassArts seems to be lacking in the staffing area possibly, etc, etc. but yet I still want to go there, probably for the money and the location. i would get to be close to a new set of family and stuff. yet there is snow and the school seems questionable in certain ways.

MICA plain rocks, it is most like a college experience and is perfect and they send me tons of stuff in the mail that encourages me to go more and more, stuff on careers and about their school, except for the fact that it is the most expensive and is in baltimore.

so i have no idea what to do. i just want to decide.