the tutorial

we have a forty minute tutorial period at school in which we can get help from teachers or do homework. our administration has decided to use that time for our assemblies, especially our guidance assemblies. today, without any prior warning, we had a guidance assembly about college and "putting our puzzle pieces together."

so cheesy, and they might as well of just given us the handout they handed out and called it quits because they just talked about what was written on the handout. i guess it's nice to be told and not forced to read and the puzzle piece thing is cute, i suppose.

anyway, the only thing i got out of it was stress (some of it good, i am going to work on college stuff with my friends this weekend!) and the sadness that they tell me i should have 5 to 15 schools on my list now and narrow it down to 3 to 8 soon.

this makes me sad because i like my list of schools. i know it will be good to eliminate some, but i am just no sure what to do. should i visit them? should i stop pretending i could get accepted to/stand the cold at Wash U or Syracuse?

lastly, an update on how i feel about colleges right now: antsy, stressed, nervous, excited, and scared. as many have said before me, this is an exciting time for kids, we get to think about our future and make plans and the possibilities are fun to imagine. there's also a stress to it, that involves nasty words, fights, stress, sleep deprivation, and sighs. mostly though, stress is over applications and actually having to choose somewhere because i really enjoy this getting to know myself and letting my imagination create future possibilities.

for now, i am just trying to share more on the whole college shindig. i feel like i should post too much, rather than too little.